Issue One: So I'm a High School Senior, currently Dual-Enrolled at my local community college. Next year, I'm going AWAY (lol, only 4 hours away) to a University. Heres the thing - I'm taking a class at community college called Research Writing... Guess what we do in the class lmao its a two credit class, it would transfer as two of three credits of a similar class at the university. I hate the class. I don't mind the writing, I hate the writing process. hate it. as in, with a passion Its sooo awfully elementary level... we're planning to do a plan... /death I want to drop the course. advice? also, as another note - dropping the class wouldn't cause any difficulties with my school system, I'd still be a full time student - I'm taking a full HS course load too, along with another class at the community college. I hope I'll be plenty busy. Issue Two: I go to a small school (and I mean small, I've got a graduating class of just under 40) and all the Juniors and Seniors did this anti-bullying program thing... it pointed out a bunch of stuff, and brought a bunch of stuff to the surface. I'll admit I'm usually the one being judged/picked on and such, but I never used to care. Now I can't walk through the halls at school without feeling like I'm being judged. Constantly. Some of yous have seen my picture on the boards, and you can see why I've been picked on so. Another reason could be because I'm intelligent - I'm the top of my class as far as I know. I went home "sick" today because of it all. I wish I could drop out - but that's not going to happen. I'm not going to make the same "mistake" my cousin made - I'd disappoint my grandmother, which is something I really don't want to do. don't suggest 'oh, just don't let it bother you' because that never worked for me before. suggestions?
I think I'm going to leave out issue one since I have NO idea of how your school system works (mine's totally different -.-) But on issue 2: It seems like you feel you're being judged all the time, which is NOT weird since you've just started a new place and you've been picked on before and such. Maybe you're just being paranoid? Not in a bad way, most people would! But try opening your mind, because feeling like you're being judged sometimes makes you feel like nobody wants to talk to you without it being true. People don't talk to people who feel like they are not worthy - ah, this is hard to explain in another language and in text :'D (here goes my whining) But do you know what I mean? Everybody's new (or well, that's what I got from your post), so everybody wants someone to talk to. And it's hard talking to someone who avoids contact because they feel like people don't really want to talk to them, even if it's not the case. And there's something that confuses me - did you have an anti bullying program which lead to people judging you? Or did you say something that you think they will judge you on? I mean, I am one of the more popular kids in my class (yeah, I sound retarded, but I'm not saying EVERYBODY just loooves me and stuff, but I talk to most) and I do really love to talk to some of the outkasts, because they always seem to be the most interesting ones. Lol, don't think I'm calling you an outkast, but you get the picture, eh? : D I mean, if I talk to the girls who all the guys adore and stuff, I have NOTHING in common with them. All they can talk about is boys, their weight and appeareance and stuff - and I've come to realize that guys also hate that in girls. Don't really know where I'm going with this, but just saying that if your body language says "Everybody hates me" then people react to that. Something worth thinking of. Oh, and Luna. Trust me when I say this; you are a very beautiful and interesting girl. And no, it's not something I say very often, but you seem to not like yourself that much which is such a shame D: You are a great girl!!
Issue 1: Just drop it. You disliking the class that much will probably reflect poorly on your grade, etc., so just get rid of the course. Most high schools let you do a Withdraw/Pass thing if you have above a particular grade when you drop the class; so I think you ought to be ok. (And if you're doing dual enrollment, either you've already got plenty of credits for graduation and are looking for more coursework than your high school offers, so you should be alright as far as that goes.) Issue 2: Alright, firstly, if people judge your for being intelligent, just assume that they are jealous of your potential. :yup: Ok, time to be more serious. =P Anyways...if you're worried at all about people making fun of you, etc., due to your physical appearance, well, quite frankly I second Freja on her earlier post in that pic topic on you being pretty. Think of it this way - you don't need to be a stick to be attractive; quite frankly you're very pretty the way you are. And even if you were a stick, if you had a hideous facial structure you still wouldn't be attractive. You most certainly don't; you're very pretty as you are. Have some confidence in yourself. You're a Senior. You graduate in late May-ish; if you have issues with just not letting it get to you just remember, they're not worth it. You have around 5 months left; don't let the idiocy/rudeness of others ruin your potential in life. You know not to drop out, which of course is good, but just put up with it for these 5 months. Then you can go to college, which should help weed out some of the worse of such peoples, and things'll be better. Just remember that those people aren't worth it. And what Freja pointed out about others' perception of you is very true. If you behave as though you could be a target, well, then those idiots will make you a target in order to reaffirm their "status" or "friendships" with each other, etc. Again, have some confidence - carry yourself well, or retaliate (slightly, not enough to provoke them, just enough to defend yourself) and they won't bother you in the future because it'll make them look bad in front of their friends. In other words, beat them at their own game - they dis you, make comments back at them that're wittier. Even though they and their friends will loudly laugh at you (probably fakely) to make themselves look/feel better, later they'll remember that you are NOT, in fact, an easy target and will avoid irritating you. (Just don't provoke them after that.) Again, they won't risk anything that'll make themselves look bad, so, yeah... Really though. Worse case scenario, force yourself to get through these 5 months and you're free from your high school. It'll work out OK in the end.
I love you guys <3 I really do and just for clarification, I'm not new at my school, I'm working on my FOURTEENTH year the anti-bullying program made me realize people are judging me... they always have, I've just never noticed it. now I don't know how to go back to the way it was... my only problem with saying something back to them is I've struggled all my life to be articulate. talkinglikeitsalloneworddoesntreallyhelpmycauseatdefendingmyselfandthisishowireallytalkbelieveitornotlmao (talking like its all one word doesn't really help my cause at defending myself and this is how I really talk believe it or not lmao) I can be normal online (which is probably one of the main reasons I'm here) because I can read what I wrote and evaluate it. and yeah, I figure I'll just drop the class. They can't penalize me for it in any way if I drop within the time limit (which is the 22nd of this month) :rhett:
Ahh, so the issue here is that your bliss in ignorance has been lost. Well, quite frankly, humanity as a whole is judgmental - people like to lump people either as like themselves (for the most part, fellow sheep-like organisms), or not. (Hence how stereotypes have arisen, as well.) If you're not homogeneous as them; e.g. if you actually have a personality and/or a brain, such sheep-like peoples will alienate you, because quite frankly...well, people are afraid of those not like them. The fear of the unknown. People don't like the fact that, gasp, you're smarter, oh noes, I'm intimidated, I'm going to try to put you down to make myself feel better. If you talk really fast, use that to your advantage - scare them off. If they can't understand you, just look really angry/intimidating while you do it or something. =P
Fail, I do not understand your school system, period : D Anyways, I do agree with Anfan. It really is true that some people put others down just to gain status themselves. (I actually had some of this in my psychology classes xD) and it's so sad, but it's how some people just think. I see it myself sometimes too, and you know what? People tend to avoid those people, just not in public. You know, they'll act like they like them just because then they know they won't get abused. But they talk behind their backs, and how cool is it to be that stupid person, where it's obvious to everybody what an ass they really are? And yeah, just because you're intelligent, people tend to show their jealousy in odd ways -.- It's just really sad, people who never move on. You always see them everywhere, I think it's something that'll never change. And the fact that they take it out on you is just a shame. They must feel really bad about themselves if they feel the need to!
#2 Been there. Don't give up. Some days might be tought, but trust your Karma. I usually had 2 reactions to this: Act like if I heard nothing or a simple "Shut the fuck up" did the trick more than once. But like I said, karma.... I like the fact that I'm now meeting some of those guys at their day job, racking cans of beans on their respective shelves at my local grocery store. Can't control myself... I always have this face
oh you guys are so right! and amazing Now I /really/ can't wait until college... that way I can surround myself with at least semi-intelligent people :rhett: but for now at least I've got yous <3 I know you've always got an encouraging word or two to say.
LAMO THAROUX! I've got a bit of a reputation for not using foul language... so it would be 'lmao you're trying to act all tough you don't scare me' but yeah, it would probably work. you're all too awesome