I am so depressed.

Everything I feared would happen, happened.
I am stuck here after school. Can't find ANY job even though I've applied for ALL the crap I could find o__x apparently, everyone needs a job right now.
And all my friends are doing something (got accepted at uni, working, is travelling etc.)
Of course I HAD to move away from my parents (no, but really. I had to. Or I would die there), but now I can't pay rent. So currently I have to get my parents to pay it (I still have like 5k$ left of the savings they've saved up for me - used to have 10k$though)
They keep pushing me to do something, BUT I CAN'T. I feel freaking depressed, and I can't haul my ass up to seek financial support from the state (which will give me like 1500$ every month) . I have maybe 1,000$ worth of bills I need to pay,but I don't wanna tell m parents.
My siblings have great jobs, make a lot of money. I am just one big dissapointment to my parents. They always considered me their "smart child" but I am getting nowhere. My grades weren't as good as I could get them (AT ALL) because I am one lazy idiot.

And everyone keeps asking me what I am doing now, all I can say is nothing. I FEEL LIKE A FXCKING LOSER!!! T__T;
Besides that I just broke like 2 guys' hearts. Because I can't say no early enough, and lead them on or whatever. And the guy I have this huge crush on has a girlfriend, but he is still doing me ! And I cannot let him go because I really think he is the one for me... I will never meet another one like him again, I am sure of that.

I feel like I just wanna die. No I won't kill myself, I am not that stupid , but I really feel like I have nothing to live for right now.
I HATE THIS SHIT.
Sorry, just HAD to get it out.

 

Apply for some bullshit class and collect csn money. That'll help until you can get a job.

 

It's not that easy, Virre. I tried applying 3 places for uni but got rejected because I didn't have the right subjects from school o__o;
So what I can do is take extra classes but not sure that will get me SU because you need at least something hours. And I want to join the army, but they rejected me too. So I have to apply again.

 

ive felt like this alot before all i can say is sleep on it and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day and just look hard for jobs someone will hire you. our if you have friends that work places ask for hook ups thats how i always got my jobs i hope this helped just keep your head up : )

 

^ Thanks <3 But I have felt like thi for a month or so D; so sleeping on it probably won't help. I do sleep too much already :s
And problem is, I am the only one living in Copenhagen since I moved away from my friends because they were doing other stuff. So. And I hope it will be easier finding jobs here, but meh . not really! :s

 

ohh i see what you mean so your isolated from everyone : / all i can say is stay positive and dont do anything stupid : )

 

Don't be depressed. It's the key to getting over this damn thing that is happenin' to you Freja!

Be cheerful even if you lose your clothes! <3

 

aaaaalright.

heres my advice... you may not like some of it, but look at it from different perspectives. you can also tell me to shove it if its too up front, but thats just the type of person i am...

A) You need to tell SOMEONE about your financial problems. if you have bills up to your ears, the WORST thing to do is to let them sit and to get even worse. before you know it you will have MORE bills ontop of those ones, and it just gets worse and worse for you.

B ) this guy you like.... you say he has a girlfriend, yet he is seeing you?.. what kind of boyfriend does that make him out to be??

shit, i would NEVER do something like that... if YOU were his girlfriend, would he just end up doing the same to you?.. then this would lead down to you getting even more depressed, because your in an even worse situation then you are now.

Take it from a guys perspective.. i KNOW how a lot of guys think.. and from what you said about him skrewing you and him having a girlfriend, then you shouldn't be liking him. he doesn't love you enough to break up with his girl friend, and to go out with you instead.

C) Job issues are a problem for a lot of people. I haven't had any issues with getting a job, and i suppose i would put it down to my personality IRL. here are a few suggestions i would say:
-When handing in a resume, make sure you take it to the Boss personally. dont deal with anyone underneath him/her, as they wont say "this person was really interesting and had great charisma".. only YOU can show that to the person, and they won't see that just from reading a few pieces of paper.

-Be a little bit cocky.. not to the point where you would shit someone to tears, but just have a little bit of self confidence. Make a few jokes with the interviewer/boss, and just see what reactions you get.

-Body language is a HUGE thing. don't be too much of a politician with HUGE hand movements and over-exagerated speeches. but DONT sit there arms crossed and slouching. Posture and a smile go a long way, and you being female, this can be a huge bonus for you

when you go for an interview, dont just sit there taking questions from them. start to ask THEM questions. I am not too sure what jobs you were looking for, but a few questions that should get some interesting responses would be "Would you mind if i asked who you thought was the strongest person in this workplace?", etc. be polite, make it sound like you aren't demanding an answer... but demand an answer at the same time =P



D) as for the financial support... if you can get it, then GO GET IT =D.. why deny yourself the right to be able to get some sort of a headstart. think about it. you say your in debt with bills, you dont want to ask your parents for money (which is fair enough), and you want to be independant. you dont have a job... so why not go get this cash?? at least its a start..

I hope I dont sound like too much of an asshole in this post, as i truly am not meaning to be. I am just trying to give you a bit of motivation to do something and to keep looking forward in life. (lol... listen to me... I'm only 18 and sound like I am 50 xD)..

If you ever want to chat, hit me up via a PM and i'll give you my MSN or something =).. the offers there if you want it.

 

Oh god, I love you guys so much <3 <3 <3
I've been without internet for two days (GOSH) so I couldn't get on to you D; meh. But it's back up for now.

Kaden; Wow. Thank you so much. I know this is the internet and I really know how much of an idiot I seem when I WHINE ON THE FREAKING INTERNET. But I read through your post, and it helped me ! Thank you so much.

Here's an update:
Still issues with that guy. Not gonna change much now, I will probably put an end to it sooner or later. I know I have to.
Finincial problems; I FINALLY went down there and applied for fininancial support. I also called up my school (which I owe like 300$) and I got sorted some of the stuff out. Also told my parents. They got mad, but they're glad I told them, and it's also them who kicked my butt and made me go up there to apply for support.
SO. Basically, I've got this "job" (meaning, they will call me when they need people, so nothing regular, but still... money ya'know) at a retirement home. I love old people, so it's fine. Just looking forward to seeing how this will go.
And I will read up math , just have to look through things and find a class I can join - still need to do this, but since I've been without internet, I couldn't really do anything.
I talked to the people from the government (lol, dont know how to explain xD) and they said that if I couldn't join a class before the 20th, they wanted me to go to another class where they would find me an education within 3 months. Until then, they will give me around 1500$ every month O__o I should've applied earlier MAN!
So that's kind of how things look right now.

I know I felt so far down when I wrote this. Things are looking up, but I still feel like I'm in this freaking black hole, because it's so hard to figure out who I am right now - like, an identity crisis :s

ANYWAY. I went to see toy story 3 to put my mind of things. Made some nice food, and I was also down talking to those people. Made me calm. PLUS I have the interwebs back. And I also talked to my dad. And we had this long talk where I told him how I feel, and I kinda made him cry o.o well, we both did! But it felt good to get everything out, and he told me that he wanted the best for me. I knew that all along, just hard to see it sometimes, because it's just me me me.

Again, thanks guys. Ilu, really.

 

I just realized I misspelled financial through my whole post many times. LOL.

 

I'm glad to hear that things are starting to work out for you Freja - and this finding who you are thing is a part of life - sometimes the road is rough and other times smooth - but at the end of it all you will be a better person for having overcome it
Remember, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger!

 

Tharoux's karma: Everything that happen in our lives is there for a reason. Trust the future and it shall return it to you. (It's better when said in french :| )

Things WILL get better. They always do. <3

 

A recording of me speaking in french ? NEVER ! XD
catch me on mumble if you want to ear me

 

Yeah, ;Clumsy !! And if it really is true, I will get super-strong Actually, when I went down for the FINANCIAL (yay) support, I found out that I am far from the only one. They told me a lot of people are doing it, and that I shouldn't be ashamed because no one can get jobs at the moment. And that it was a good thing, because they will be able to help me through education plans etc Whee

Lol , Junior. Everything sounds bad in German, such a "manly" language Believe me, I took it for 5 years O____x

 

Glad i could help in some way =)

I am 18, and am just starting to get into the same thing myself... Going to uni next year means i need to leave home and move 3-4 hours away from my parents, get a new job , get support, dont spend money, get my licence (NEED TO GET OFF MY ASS FOR THIS), as well as pay for a $750 bond within the next 2 weeks, AND when i move up there its $155 per WEEK to stay on campus =.=.. (AUD, if you wanted to convert it or something)...

but I am staying positive =)
i just read this thread and automatically knew how you felt and wanted to help xD
glad to have helped in some way =)