When life seems hopeless, It makes a nigga loose focus. Empty beer bottles and roaches. Helps to get it off the chest cuz im so stressed and all i say is Fuck the world. Kaay... today was my 20th bday,,,, refer to the thread Zer0 made about marlene and I. All i got to say is dont mess up any opportunity that presents themselves after high school. Here is my story. Im 20 yrs old,,, have nothing to look back upon unless you count sports achievements. I have no money.. my girlfriend broke up with me today. (evil bitch new it was my bday tooo. ) and i still live with my parents. my only escape... only place is when i go drink with my felloww screw ups.... my mom yelled at me yesterday to move out... i think im going to this month if i get a job. Even though she knows im working towards becoming a police officer. i had a great oppoirtunity come to me when i was 17... graduated high school half a year earlier than my classmates. i was playing baseball... college. with the promise of going to play in the states the very next year when i turned 18. But for some reason i didnt take the fucking gift i had seriously. I fucked it up by failing out.. even though i was totally capapble of finishing the studies that was required. but i think i was too immature. thats why i wasnt to warn all the high school kids tat get presented an opportunity like this to sieze it and not squander it. I look back on it now and realized i could be in a very good college/university and be studying something rather than sleeping all day and wasting my time on video games. THE ONLY SOLACE I FIND IS THRU A BOTTLE> A ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGE CAN ONLy make me wHOLE. Dont ever by any circumstance miss an opportunity that is presented to you... Cuz when you get older you will surely look back on it like iam now and be royally pissed. peace... i will be on tommorrow .. ps... thanks for the birthday wishes.
Awwwwwwwwwww Ak I seriously don't get why every country isn't like ours, free school system and you actually CAN NOT do nothing at 20 years if you want to Crazy world. I feel so bad for you, I have no idea what else to say - I mean, I'm not sure how thinks work in Canada and stuff. You can't contact any authority and let them put you in to a school or something? Or there must be something else you want instead of doing nothing - I seriously know how boring it is to nothing, my best friend hasn't been to school in over a year (she is only 18) and she doesn't want to do anything :s And btw, my brother lived with us until he was 20.. Don't feel bad, a lot of people do that
Look, you're only 20. You're talking as if life is over already and, seriously, it's not. I dropped out of uni at the end of my first year as I hated it. 3 years later, I started again. I'm about 6 months into the course now and it's bloody hard work (I work full time too), but I'm in a better position to do it now. I'm more mature, and I've gotten my shit together, so to speak =p. 20 is not too late to do anything, and as for still living at home, I was 20 before I moved out. I think that's pretty normal nowadays. If you want to join the police, you need to sort your alcohol problem out. You need to be fit (as you probably know) and alcohol is just going to ruin that. Don't focus so much on now, focus on what you want for the future, on what you want to achieve. It sounds so cliched, but I honestly think that if you work hard enough, you can achieve whatever it is you want most. You're probably feeling that much worse now because of the situation with your girlfriend. Breaking up probably is one of the worst feelings in the world at times, but we all have to go through it. It doesn't help how you feel now, but it's one of those feelings that is so raw and painful at first, but it does get easier. Alcohol won't help though. Alchohol is a depressant so all these feelings you have at the moment are going to magnified because you're drinking. As well as that, it'll ruin your health and fitness (a big problem if you want a career with the police) and it will ruin your mind. You're obviously not an idiot. If you were, you wouldn't be thinking about all of this. You can't throw that away. You missed an opportunity and look how you feel about it, so don't put yourself in a position where you going to miss out on all the other opportunities that will come your way. Because there will be more opportunities, but they don't just happen, you know. You have to make them. This point you're at now can either be just another day/week/month/year, or it can be the point where you decide that this is not what you want for yourself, and where you do something about it. I know it's not easy. I was treated for depression from the age of 12 with counselling and medication, and I still struggle with it now at times, but you have to keep going and keep working towards what you want in life. Yes, there will be times when you probably fall back to feeling like you do now, there will be lapses, but that's just how it is. Unfortunately, life isn't like The Sound of Music. I sometimes think that our generation just expects things to just fall into place, and that's half the trouble. Life doesn't just 'happen' the way we want it to. We have to work at it and the day you decide that yours isn't the way you want it to be is the day you start making changes.
I think Tricia did an awesome job at putting up her point, as i was gonna say the same thing My advice: 1- Dont give up.. EVER no matter whats getting you down 2- Someone else has ALWAYS got it WORSE then you 3- Dont feel bad im almost 25 and Im still at home... (got my college letters yesterday saying i wasnt excepted that sucks awhole bunch ) It'll get better Ak*, as long as you want it to hun XD Hope you had a good birthday even tho it was kinda' shit day
Life's nothing without fucking up at some point of your childhood or whatever you call that phase in life.